so i realize that i never really responded to my own post of a couple weeks ago. katie's comment was enough to push me over the edge -- i'm planning to toss the cbe monitor, the opks, and the bbt thermometer in the recycle bin and take a break from official baby-making for a few months. old af should be on her way any minute now. her arrival will mark the end of 12-months of ttc, and despite the ineptitude of this month's attempt, i think that that makes me officially infertile. i feel like there should be a chocolate martini party to mark this occasion. for all the crap i've been through for the past year and for all the crap that is still to come -- there should be a little interlude of merry-making to mark this rather grim proclamation. no? heaven knows, nature does quite the hazing -- we should at least be able to throw on the togas and fill-up the beer bong once in a while to relieve the stress. (for full-disclosure, i must admit that i haven't been to a toga party since my 14th birthday and i have not once used a beer bong... i think that makes me long overdue.)
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It's funny how we all go through the same feelings about IF it seems. You try so hard to convince yourself that nothing's wrong and then when the moment comes to take the next step - it's so difficult.
I absolutely understand where you're coming from. I'm also with Katie - trust your gut. Mine hardly ever lies to me, although I do have a tough time listening some days. :)
(And at least recoup some CBEFM money - put that sucker on eBay!)
I am glad that you are giving yourself a little break. The six months that we took off last year did wonders for me, from a physical and emotional standpoint. I truly hope that this break brings you great happiness. . . and that so much happiness is coming your way.
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