still waiting

i'm 11 dpo (days past ovulation), and i'm bravely waiting for my . to a) come or b) not come. of course i'm hoping for the latter, but all signs are pointing to "maybe." bbs hurt, maybe a little queasy (which means nothing since i get a little queasy before .), a little funny taste in my mouth. the biggest thing that means absolutely nothing but still makes me think something new is happening is my basal body temp is rising. if temp stays high through monday, i might start getting really excited. but there are days to go before that... so in the meantime, i'm going to astrophysicist's 30th bday at a yummy indian restaurant. mm...

stuff

so, i went out and bought a basal body temp thermometer and cough medicine today. i'm preparing myself for another month of ttc just in case. it seems hard to believe that i'll ever see a positive hpt, but i know that three months is far from proof of infertility. so far the only symptoms i've experienced (that could just as easily be because of an impending .) are sore boobs and maybe a funny taste in my mouth... and perhaps the loss of a few brain cells. today my brain failed me about three times... once when i lost my debit card, once when i lost my drivers license (fortunately found shortly thereafter), and once when i hugged mil good-bye as we were about to depart my parents house (together!). great. there better be some hormones causing this b/c otherwise i'm going to have to find an even less intellectual job.

back in the saddle

so, we're trying again. we officially stopped after july... we can't remember why we stopped anymore... i think i thought i might get a really high-paying job that i should focus on for a while before getting pregnant. well, that didn't happen. i'm still working part-time at my old job and part-time with my father. i'm hoping that the latter will lead to a career in real estate, but its still pretty early to tell.

so, in january we figured why not start trying again. so we did. so far, still no dice. this month i actually even tried to figure out when i was ovulating, so we'd have a better chance of concieving. even more... i've started chatting on the babycenter.com message boards. i was just eager to chat with folks who are as bummed as i am that i can't immediately get pregnant. so far, i'm on day 22 of my cycle... i'm hoping my . won't come next week. if it doesn't, i'll test next thursday or friday.

so far there aren't really any symptoms that would lead me to believe i was pregnant... my chest is a little sore, but that doesn't mean anything. i think i have at least learned that you don't know anything until you see your . or a positive pregnancy test. so now i get to wait... yay.