remember me?

hi! i'm moosk. i used to live here, but now i only visit a couple of times a year. it's just like when i went off to college!

i have no real excuse. i've been tired. work's been busy. i've been on a computer diet... they're all kind of true. i've been reading your blogs as much as possible, but not feeling witty enough to leave a comment.

some stuff has happened since i last wrote. i have a new niece, and she's super cute. in combination with her older sister, they're pretty much irresistible. i didn't expect to be so instantly smitten with #2, since i'd already fallen so hard for #1. and everyone knows a 2-year-old is more fun than a newborn (don't they?). but seriously, this newborn was just a ball of snuggly cuddles, and i didn't even have to chase her down to get her to go to sleep! i also had the good fortune to be holding this beautiful newborn and dreaming of the special newborn that was growing inside my own body...

this doesn't mean i've shed all of my fears for my own little one. i still grow more anxious in the days leading up to my next ob appt... start imagining scenarios that i know aren't healthy. last night i barely slept. and when i did i had fitful dreams about the milimoosk (and some kind of nightmare where sarah palin turned out to be my college professor, and i was scared she would find out all of the nasty things i'd said about her). my next appointment is this wednesday. i have no real reason to fear. i've had a few little cramps that worried me, and my belly still ain't looking all too pregnant, but i don't think either of those are reasons to believe anything less than ordinary is going on.

oh, i realize that i didn't even post after my last appt. jeez, i stink. well, that one went well (or i probably would have written). milimoosk seems to be growing on target and has a very low probability of having downs or the trisomies. and, um s/he's freakin' cute! i swear! even at 3 inches, you couldn't doubt that this is a cute little critter. every time i look at the u/s picture, i say, "aw, you're so darn cute!" and tickle her/his belly on the photo before realizing this little thing is inside of me. so, yeah, i'm a little biased, and despite my fears i'm definitely getting attached. who knows, maybe after the next appointment, i might even buy a baby-thing (though i already have piles of hand-me-down maternity wear, i have yet to get a single baby-thing. i guess it's the jewish part of me*).

and, finally, the most important thing that's happened to me since i last wrote: i baked red-velvet cupcakes!** (photos to come!) i hadn't baked since before i found out i was pregnant (and i've hardly cooked either).

* jewish tradition is very superstitious about buying anything before the baby is born. i imagine that makes for a very hectic day-after!

**ok, so maybe not the most important thing, but they are dang good.